You guys, I never appreciated how fit and thin I was before until I was able to look back and compare it to myself now.
I started this pregnancy at 138 lbs, which is on the heavy side for me. I’m most comfortable when I’m in the low to mid-120s, and 138 is basically my max weight before I kick diet and exercise into high gear.
But I had been relatively exercise-y pre-pregnancy. It was really just my food that was a bit out of control. We had been trying to get pregnant for several months, and the websites I was reading on fertility cautioned against dieting/calorie restriction, which I took as an excellent excuse to eat my heart out. When we found out that we were pregnant, truth be told, I was feeling a bit overweight and unhealthy, and didn’t have the best confidence in my body image.
But hindsight is 20-20 and without sounding too conceited, damn, 5 weeks girl. You looked super good.
That’s not to say that I don’t love my body and how I look now. In fact, very much the opposite. I have never felt more confident in my body than at 34 weeks pregnant and 165 lbs. As big as I am, ironically, I’ve never felt so tiny. And as tired as I am all the time, I’ve never felt so strong and amazed by what my body can do. I’m obsessed with taking photos of myself. I’m obsessed with feeling the little guy kick and roll and stretch inside of me, and pull Jamie’s hand to my belly any time I feel the baby moving so he can marvel, too (…hopefully he doesn’t mind that I take his hand hostage every 20 minutes — the little guy is super active).
And looking into the future, I’m actually looking forward to getting back on track with watching my calories and restarting my exercise regiment. With the pregnancy, I’ve let exercise fall to the wayside a bit. Any time that I jump on the elliptical (um, all two times during the pregnancy) I’m reminded how out of shape and exhausted my body has become. Once the baby is no longer in me I am excited to get back to cardio, yoga, and weights without worrying that I’ll fall or drop something or lift too heavy and hurt the baby.
But for now, more selfies, and a few more weeks of comfort foods (: